“When you want something that you believe, it feels good. But when you have a desire that you doubt, then that desire does not feel good because the vibrational content of your desire and the vibrational content of you belief does not match. Negative emotion is simply present when you are thinking in opposition to your own desire.” ~ Abraham-Hicks
House-hunting can be an arduous and, at times, an emotional time. Feeling as if you may never find THE house, you get a little more disillusioned with each house you lose in the impending bidding war; one where you have no idea who is bidding what so you have to straddle trying to get the house and not over paying so much. Recently, I found myself journaling about the three houses I have lost out on since March, and realized that perhaps as much I thought I desired them, my vibrational content of my desire and the content of my belief were not aligned. It was one of those V-8 moments where everything I have learned and studied about manifestation stared me squarely between the eyes.
As Abraham-Hicks states, the desire that you have and the belief you deserve/are worthy of/should receive/really actually want the desire need to be aligned. When they aren’t, when you place that negative emotion and energy in the midst of your desire, you are telling yourself to go with the negative.
In the case of the first house I wanted, I really wanted it. I loved where it was, I loved the work they had done and the character the home embodied. There were things to do, but nothing that couldn’t have been done over time. I bid on it with a cash offer and lost by, what I found later to be $25,000. My realization of late is that although I loved the house, I kept coming back in my mind with how much cash that was that I was spending. Did I really need 2500 square feet? Did I really need to spend that much money? Will I get enough of it back selling my house? Is this a smart thing to do?
All of these questions, coming squarely from a place of fear, were putting negative energy and emotion into the universe and into my brain. By virtue of neuroscience and energy, I created my reality and did not get this house. I didn’t get the next two for similar reasons, where there was something that was making me hesitate or question my decision even though I went forward with the bid.
I can say the same for my desire to attract my most meaningful impactful love. This was an intention I put out into the universe with my vision board and intentions for the year. I focused meditations, journaling and other spiritual practices around manifesting this love, the partnership that I desire. What I have found, however, is that I continued to wonder about a past relationship and whether there was a way for that to change. I kept a little flame alive for someone who had zero flame for me. Because that didn’t happen I began to wonder about my worthiness again. Eleven years ago as I was separating from my second husband, the idea that perhaps I was difficult to live with was presented to me upon a silver platter by someone fairly close to me. That stung and stuck with me. I have speculated on that and I have worked on the parts of me I have felt needed to heal. Although I have healed a lot of wounds, this one comes up whenever I think about attracting my most meaningful impactful love. The belief I am worthy and the desire to have a relationship far greater than the one I continue to pine after are at odds and far from clear. Some people refer to this as the boomerang, what you put out you get back. Some people call it neurolinguistic programming, that your brain believes the words you use. Some call it manifestation and the law of attraction. All of it comes down to one real thought for me, believe.
Believe in yourself and your capability. Believe that you are worthy of all good things. Believe that focusing on the good and the positive will bring good and positive. Believe that whatever the outcome, it is always for the best and the highest good for all.
Keep your desire positive, believe in what you desire and in yourself and go ahead and attract!!