Chapter 2

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition.”

― Steve Jobs

Many of us have read this quote and understand it. But do we live it? Do we have the courage to follow our heart or are we letting others’ opinions guide us? Are we afraid to take risks because of what other people may think or say? Are we stuck in a paradigm that may no longer serve our highest good but serves us all the same? Do we have to get uncomfortable to move forward? Are we ready?

These are some of the questions that I have been grappling with these last few months. Conventional wisdom says that I stay in my job, making a good living and not worry that I am no longer happy in my work. As my dad put it, milk them for your money, why do you care if you are happy or valued? Just take the cash.

He wasn’t that uncaring but the message I heard was the same. Don’t go after your passion Suzy, stay where you get paid. He didn’t want to worry about me. He didn’t understand that the work was not only no longer fulfilling, it was affecting me and my health. My fight with depression was at a scary height, feeling and fighting the feeling (yes like a ping pong ball) of not being worthy. I found myself fighting that feeling more than ever. I kept visualizing the hot air balloon from the healing session I had in California, and sandbags falling off. My vibration and energy kept changing, slowly rising like the sound of a scale on a piano. I knew that I was starting to lose the long standing belief that I wasn’t worthy and I was beginning to believe that I deserve better. It gave me courage to say “I can do this.”

My chapter 2, following my passions, appreciating the moment, is coming soon. Everything I have understood, awakened from and grown from has brought me here. As my journey continues according to my inner voice, I listen. I use all the courage I have to follow my dreams and my heart.

Steve Jobs was right, you do need to drown out all if those outer voices and listen to your inner voice, your intuition.

More to come, chapter 2.