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Faith

Faith. How do you build faith? That question is being asked by me over and over again. When I was young, we celebrated the Catholic holidays, mainly Easter and Christmas, to honor my father’s religion. We also celebrated Passover and Hanukah, along with Yom Kippur, to honor my mother’s religion. We didn’t celebrate faith.  My…

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Thank you Aruba

The week should have been joyful, totally in the moment kind of time.  The week should have been fun and completely relaxing. The week should have been celebratory.  There were moments like all of this, and then there were moments of sadness, anger, a roller coaster of emotions.  My heart, so very shattered, having trouble…

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One Happy Island

The deafening silence after everything is done. The feeling of aloneness that sets in even though some people stay in touch, You don’t talk to people, you text with them. You don’t want to hear voices, engage in non-sense. You start to think that your lack of filter will just cause you to tell someone…

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I am Worthy

The little boy wanted to stand up and scream at everyone. His hands were fidgety as he squirmed in his chair. He couldn’t understand why these people thought they knew the answers to everything. Instead of hearing what they were saying to each other, he could only hear “I blah blah blah, I.” Although only…

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Stop Playing Small…

The gray sky looked like I felt. The trees swayed with the wind and at times bent enough that I thought they would snap…just like me. Can the branches take any more? Can the roots hold? Can I handle any more, I thought, as I watched the wind whip a bit of the leaves up…

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mom…

Feisty. Spunky. Stubborn. Intelligent. Independent. Dancer. Compassionate. Strong willed. Witty. Funny. Caring. Accepting. Completely Unfiltered. All words that describe my mom and as many would say, me. I embody a lot of my mom, the amazing and fierce as well as the dark and self-deprecating.  My mom just passed away, at 95 years young. She…

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Sunrise

The sky was multi-colored, with the night blue starting to lighten to the west, lighter purple and pink to the east. The first light of day was just beginning to brighten the world, the birds beginning to awaken. Seagulls, plovers and sanderlings began to dot the beach, waiting and watching for the big ball of…

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Open My Heart…

The evening air was cooler than normal for a June evening, the sky was a bit bleak with big heavy clouds slumbering slowly east.  I decided that going anywhere to eat outside wasn’t going to be smart, a thunderstorm was going to eventually hit the area.  One of the things I actually like about Connecticut’s…

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Words…..Actions…

My ex-husband was the best with words, both those that built you up as well as those that broke you down. Ours was a complicated relationship where I gave and gave and he took and took. I happily gave and gave I should say, and he happily took and took. His words kept me giving…

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To Do or To Be

The rain fell hard on the window pane. It was fierce windy rain, brought on by the remnants of the devastating hurricane Harvey. We had rain on and off all day, with the most recent deluge the hardest and longest rainfall. The sound, soothing at times, was also startling, loud but rhythmic as well.  The…

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